Psalm 139

O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
2You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar.
3 You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O LORD, You know it all.
5 You have enclosed me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.
7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there.
9 If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
10 Even there Your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,
And the light around me will be night,"
12 Even the darkness is not dark to You,
And the night is as bright as the day
Darkness and light are alike to You.
13 For You formed my inward parts;
You wove me in my mother's womb.
14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them.
17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand
When I awake, I am still with You.
19 O that You would slay the wicked, O God;
Depart from me, therefore, men of bloodshed.
20 For they speak against You wickedly,
And Your enemies take Your name in vain.
21 Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
22 I hate them with the utmost hatred;
They have become my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
24 And see if there be any hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.

Yesterday morning while doing my quiet time the devotion I was doing said for me to read a chapter in Psalm. After reading it, for some reason I turned a couple of pages and begin to read Psalm 139. And For some reason I started reading it out loud and from the very first verse the tears started flowing and didn't stop for awhile. There was a point that I was so choked up I could barely get the words out. I don't know why...it just struck me somewhere deep inside and it touched me beyond what I can explain!

"You have enclosed me behind and before, and laid your hand upon me (verse 5) isn't that amazing to know that God has me covered...from the back...from the front...and his hands are on me"! What protection......! God has my back...!

"Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them" (verse 16) As I struggle over some issues in my life, it is comforting to know that my God has it all worked out already. He knows what the next few days will bring, he knows already that there is a rainbow at the end of the struggle and he already knows that I will get there! He has faith in me.

"How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!..If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand, When I awake, I am still with you". (verse 17-18) Well...all I can say is...Wow; God must really love me to think of me that much.

Note: Sorry to everyone that I haven't written much...I've just been kinda empty. I am doing okay it's just weird that I have had a hard time wanting to sit down and write. The passion hasn't been there. Thanks to all who check up on me via email, it's wonderful to know my writing has been missed. I promise to do better!