Breakaway for a Breakthrough

(Turn it up and listen while you read!)

I know it's been a long time since I've posted, but believe me much has been going on in my life. God has been doing a mighty work in my life and I have finally come to that breakthrough I have been searching for for over three years now. Finally God's love has found itself to my heart. A few months ago while getting some counseling from a very wise women she told me...."Sonya, you have to get God's love from your head and to your heart. Receiving His love is more than just the knowledge that you have gained from His word or because someone has told you that He loves you, it's a heart thing and it will be an amazing experience once you truly receive it and you will know exactly the moment it happens."

I can wholeheartedly agree with her, it's been an AMAZING experience! No longer knowledge, but a feeling of his love is so amazing and so intense at times that I feel like I will bust wide open from it. Never have I had this kind of joy, this kind of peace. Although life is still a constant struggle and I still deal with some trials I had before the breakthrough, I have that inner peace that so many had told me about and I had so desperately tried to find but seemed so elusive.

Going back to what was said to me a few months ago about knowing the exact moment that it happens is the behind the title of this post. It came the second I made the decision to breakaway from everything and everybody I had known the past three years. Who would have thought that a breakaway would become a breakthrough, certainly not me. I can recall the moment I felt my heart soar with his love! I told someone that it was such a light feeling, a feeling of freedom and that all I wanted to do was dance. Literally! That's what I wanted to do....DANCE!

Yesterday a friend posted a song on her blog that was the inspiration behind me finally sitting down and writing this post. She wrote a post about a song by Kelly Clarkson called "Breakaway" and I have listened to it over and over again. It speaks so much to the recent events in my life that I felt I was called to write about it. You'll find the lyrics below.

To my friends I left behind know that I love you with so much love that is sometimes causes me to want to breakaway and come back, but alas I know this is the road God wants me on. I am so thankful for each of you and the great work you did in my life for the past three years. Please realize that the time you spent with me led me to this point and now as the song says because of your hand in the beginning of my walk with Christ I can now sing ....."I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway". And, as the song says....." but I won't forget all the ones that I love and I won't forget the place I came from". Your little girl has finally "grown up" in Christ. Love to each of you.

"Buildings with a hundred floors, swinging around revolving doors, Maybe I don't know where they'll take me, but gotta keep moving on, moving on"......"I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky"......this is song lyrics straight from my heart. In a comment I left on a friends blog I wrote, "I often conjure up a picture of myself standing in an open field with arms open wide and the wind is blowing all around me. This is my picture of freedom! Standing open with arms outstretched waiting to fly to wherever God wants me." I don't know where that is but that is where the freedom comes in. My life, my soul, my longings, my whole being is wrapped up in Him and that is enough for me.


Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway