As a Child
Lately I have really been focusing on the "Father" title that we give God. We are taught and told in the Bible that He is our Father, but this concept is something hard for me to grasp. I grew up without a father. I never knew him, I don't even know his name. I know I have one, after all I am alive and with science and all you can definitely deduce that I have one. I haven't had many good role models either to help me with this concept. Even my children's own father leaves a lot to be desired in his relationship with them.
Recently I was discussing this very issue with a friend that also grew up without a father and he told me he has gone through the learning process of seeing God as a Father figure. All of you out there that have fathers will never understand how hard this can be. What do we have to go off of? Who do we have that we can compare too....even the tiniest comparison? What does the word "father" even mean?
I've been really searching this out, praying that God will show me what a father looks like. What does having a caring father feel like? I trust God, more now than I ever have and I rely on him more that I ever had. There is so many ways that I see Him, but I want to break it down, I want to know Him as a father.
My friend told me that he has learned to break it down by coming to Him as a child. Visualizing himself walking up to Him, crawling into His lap and putting his arms around His neck just like our children do to us.
I have stolen this vision.....I don't think my friend will mind. I am coming to him just as a child would. I crawl up into his lap, I tell Him my hurts, my dreams, my plans (that always gets a laugh from Him) my needs, my sins (which He always forgives) but most of all I tell Him of my love for Him and how much He means to me. I have also begun to give me a more childlike name......daddy. Right now father sounds very formidable and stern. I'm starting from the beginning, the basics, as the smallest child, just like when my children used the word daddy when they talked to their father when they were still little (they now call him dad, a product of getting older. I hated it when they started calling me mom instead of mommy!!)
Childlike. I think this is my road I must take to seeing him as a Father. Even the Bible tells me to come to Him as a child.
People were bringing little children to Jesus to have him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them. Mark 10:13-16
Recently I was discussing this very issue with a friend that also grew up without a father and he told me he has gone through the learning process of seeing God as a Father figure. All of you out there that have fathers will never understand how hard this can be. What do we have to go off of? Who do we have that we can compare too....even the tiniest comparison? What does the word "father" even mean?
I've been really searching this out, praying that God will show me what a father looks like. What does having a caring father feel like? I trust God, more now than I ever have and I rely on him more that I ever had. There is so many ways that I see Him, but I want to break it down, I want to know Him as a father.
My friend told me that he has learned to break it down by coming to Him as a child. Visualizing himself walking up to Him, crawling into His lap and putting his arms around His neck just like our children do to us.
I have stolen this vision.....I don't think my friend will mind. I am coming to him just as a child would. I crawl up into his lap, I tell Him my hurts, my dreams, my plans (that always gets a laugh from Him) my needs, my sins (which He always forgives) but most of all I tell Him of my love for Him and how much He means to me. I have also begun to give me a more childlike name......daddy. Right now father sounds very formidable and stern. I'm starting from the beginning, the basics, as the smallest child, just like when my children used the word daddy when they talked to their father when they were still little (they now call him dad, a product of getting older. I hated it when they started calling me mom instead of mommy!!)
Childlike. I think this is my road I must take to seeing him as a Father. Even the Bible tells me to come to Him as a child.
People were bringing little children to Jesus to have him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them. Mark 10:13-16
posted by Sonya Terrell at
9:16 PM
3 Comments:
Abba
I loved this post! Just now discovering faith and what it means to be a Christian, I feel EXACTLY the same way. It can be discouraging at times, feeling childlike, especially when you are around others who have been on their journey for MANY more years.
Thanks for the encouragement. Love your writing!
The "world" tells us to grow up, act mature. Unfortunately by doing that we lose the innocence of just being.
Nice thoughts!
V.
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