Excitement

GOD IS WORKING!!!! Some things have been happening for the last couple of weeks that I know that God is working on some things in my life! When you pray for confirmation and it comes in just the way you have asked (even though you didn't believe it would) then there is no denying God's will is happening!

I am so excited! I'm so excited to see what he has planned!!

As a Child

Lately I have really been focusing on the "Father" title that we give God. We are taught and told in the Bible that He is our Father, but this concept is something hard for me to grasp. I grew up without a father. I never knew him, I don't even know his name. I know I have one, after all I am alive and with science and all you can definitely deduce that I have one. I haven't had many good role models either to help me with this concept. Even my children's own father leaves a lot to be desired in his relationship with them.

Recently I was discussing this very issue with a friend that also grew up without a father and he told me he has gone through the learning process of seeing God as a Father figure. All of you out there that have fathers will never understand how hard this can be. What do we have to go off of? Who do we have that we can compare too....even the tiniest comparison? What does the word "father" even mean?

I've been really searching this out, praying that God will show me what a father looks like. What does having a caring father feel like? I trust God, more now than I ever have and I rely on him more that I ever had. There is so many ways that I see Him, but I want to break it down, I want to know Him as a father.

My friend told me that he has learned to break it down by coming to Him as a child. Visualizing himself walking up to Him, crawling into His lap and putting his arms around His neck just like our children do to us.

I have stolen this vision.....I don't think my friend will mind. I am coming to him just as a child would. I crawl up into his lap, I tell Him my hurts, my dreams, my plans (that always gets a laugh from Him) my needs, my sins (which He always forgives) but most of all I tell Him of my love for Him and how much He means to me. I have also begun to give me a more childlike name......daddy. Right now father sounds very formidable and stern. I'm starting from the beginning, the basics, as the smallest child, just like when my children used the word daddy when they talked to their father when they were still little (they now call him dad, a product of getting older. I hated it when they started calling me mom instead of mommy!!)

Childlike. I think this is my road I must take to seeing him as a Father. Even the Bible tells me to come to Him as a child.

People were bringing little children to Jesus to have him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them. Mark 10:13-16

Quote of the Day

I heard this the other day and it has stuck with me.

Make the least of all that goes and the most of all that comes.

Chance Meeting?

Ever have those times when something happens that you KNOW was orchestrated by God? You sit in awe at all the "coincidence's" that bring you to a place that when you really look at them you know it wasn't coincidence's after all, but steps directly ordained by God. Yesterday this happened to me and someone else.

Over the last couple of days I have really been looking at my selfish nature, the me, me, me complex (you know you relate, because we all have it!) and I had been asking God to make me more aware of others and their needs. Yesterday morning specifically I prayed for someone I could help, someone I could pray for. I had the day off and decided to make a trip to the library. Now mind you, I hadn't been to the Frisco library since moving here in '98 and I had this bright idea to go and get a library card. I had been thinking about doing it all summer but always put it off, so yesterday I decided to actually do it. While on the drive over I sent a text to an old friend that I hadn't talked to in awhile and asked how she was doing. She had been on my mind a lot the last couple of days. I didn't get a text back by the time I reached the library but that was no big deal, she was a busy lady. As I was standing at the counter waiting on the librarian to finish the library card process I turned around to scan the room and standing right there in line behind me was my old friend! We hugged and I laughed and told her it was funny seeing her there because I had just sent her a text a few minutes before. She said she had gotten it but hadn't responded because the question I had sent of how are you was a loaded question and would take some time to answer.

We finished our business at the counter and moved to sit at the tables outside and we talked for awhile. She is going through some rough times and my heart hurt for her. I listened and gave what feeble advice I could give and then prayed for her (I've never done that in such a public place!). We both joked how weird it was that we both ended up at the library at exactly the same time, but we both ending up agreeing that God brought us together. I don't know if any of my thoughts or advice helped her but I think she just needed someone to listen.

So, my dear friend know that I am thinking of you and praying for you. Thank you for trusting in me and thank you for being there and showing just how much God can work in our lives. Remember what I told you......HE has in all under control and will lead you in the right direction. Look how he led us together yesterday.

Chance meeting? I think not! :)

Happy Birthday Erin!

Today is my good friend Erin's 30th birthday! Erin has been one of my best friends over the past 2 years and has stood by me through everything, has been there for me more times than I can count and has never given up on me.....she is truly a wonderful friend. I feel blessed to have her in my life.

Tonight we celebrate her birthday and I can't wait! It involves dinner out, a Hummer limo, a tour of Dallas and it's nightlife and my favorite part.........CAKE!

So, .if you are reading this Erin.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!